I Look Up to the Sky

by Samuel ibn Naghrillah

993-1056
I look up to the sky and the stars,
And down to the earth and the things that creep there.
And I consider in my heart how their creation
Was planned with wisdom in every detail.
See the heavens above like a tent,
Constructed with loops and with hooks,
And the moon with its stars, like a shepherdess
Sending her sheep into the reeds;
The moon itself among the clouds,
Like a ship sailing under its banners;
The clouds like a girl in her garden
Moving, and watering the myrtle-trees;
The dew-mist -- a woman shaking
Drops from her hair to the ground.
The inhabitants turn, like animals, to rest, 
(their palaces are their stables);
And all fleeing from the fear of death,
Like a dove pursued by the falcon.
And these are compared at the end to a plate
Which is smashed into innumerable shards.

How the Chiefs demanded from Shirwi the Death of Khusrau Parwiz

by Ferdowsi

935 to 1020

From the Shahnameh

Shirwi, a timid, inexperienced youth,
Found that the throne beneath him was a snare,
While readers of mankind saw that 'twas time
For men of might, those that had done the ill,
And had produced that coil, went from the hall
Of audience to the presence of Kubád
To mind him of their infamous designs:-
"We said before and now we say again
Thy thoughts are not on government alone.
There are two Sháhs now seated in one room,
One on the throne and one on its degree,
And when relations grow 'twixt sire and son
They will behead the servants one and all.
It may not be, so speak of it no more." 

Shirwi was frightened and he played poltroon
Because in their hands he was as a slave.
He answered: "None will bring him to the toils
Except  a man whose name is infamous.
Ye must go home and advise thereon.
Inquire: 'What man is there that will abate
 Our troubles secretly."

The Sháh's ill-wishers
Sought for a murderer to murder him
By stealth, but none possessed  the pluck or courage
To shed the blood of  such a king and hang
A mountain round his own neck. Everywhere
The Sháh's foes sought until they met with one
Blue-eyed, pale-cheeked, his body parched and hairy,
With lips of lapiz-lazuli, with feet
All dust, and belly ravenous; the head
Of that ill-doer was bare.
None knew his name
Midst high and low. This villain (may he never
See jocund Paradise!) sought Farrukhzád,
And undertook the deed. 
"This strife is mine,"
He said. "If you will make it worth my while.
This is my quarry."

"Go and do it then
If thou art able,"
Farrukhzád replied.
"Moreover open not thy lips herein.
I have a purse full of dinárs for thee,
And I will look upon thee as my son."

He gave the man a dagger keen and bright,
And then the murderer set forth in haste.
The miscreant, when he approached the Sháh,
Saw him upon the throne, a slave attending. 
Khusraw Parwiz quaked when he saw that man,
And shed tears from his eyelids on his cheeks
Because his heart bare witness that day
Of heaviness was near. He cried: "O wretch!
What is thy name? Thy mother needs must wail thee."

The man replied: "They call me Mihr Hurmuzd,
A stranger here with neither friend nor mate."

Thus said Khusrau Parwiz: "My time hath come, 
And by the hand of an unworthy foe,
Whose face is not a man's, whose love none seeketh." 

He bade a boy attending him: "Go fetch,
My little guide! an ewer, water, musk,
And ambergris, with cleaner, fairer robes."

The boy-slave heard, unwitting what was meant,
And so the little servant went away,
And brought a golden ewer to the Sháh
As well as garments and a bowl of water,
Whereon Khusrau Parwiz made haste to go,
Gazed on the sacred twigs and muttered prayers:
It was no time for words or private talk.
The Sháh put on the garments brought, he made
Beneath his breath confession of his faults,
And wrapped a new simarre about his head
In order not to see his murderer's face.
Then Mihr Hurmuzd, the dagger in his hand,
Made fast the door and coming quickly raised
The great king's robe and pierced his liverstead.

Such is the process of this whirling world,
From thee its secret keeping  closely furled!
The blameless speaker and the boastful see
That all its doings are but vanity,
For be thou wealthy or in evil ease
This Wayside Inn is no abiding-place;
Yet be offenceless and ensue right ways
If thou desirest to receive just praise.

When tidings reached the highways and bázars:-
"Khusrau Parwiz was slaughtered thus," his foes
Went to the palace-prison of the sad,
Where fifteen of his noble sons were bound,
And slew them there, though innocent, what time
The fortune of the Sháh was overthrown.
Shirwi, the world-lord, dared say naught and hid
His grief though he wept sorely at the news,
And afterwards sent twenty of his guards
To keep his brothers' wives and children safe
Now that the Sháh had thus been done to death.

So passed that reign and  mighty host away,
Its majesty, its manhood, 
and its sway
Such as no king or kings possessed before,
Or heard of from the men renowned of yore.
It booteth nothing what the wise man saith
When once his head is in the dragon's breath.
Call this world "crocodile" for it doth gnaw
The prey that it has taken with its claw.
The work of Sháh Khusrau Parwiz is done;
His famous hoards and throne and host are gone.
To put one's trust in this world is to be
In quest of dates upon a willow-tree.
Why err in such a fashion from the way
Alike by shining darksome night and shining day?
Whate'er thy games let them suffice thee still
As thou art fain to save thy soul from ill,
And in thy day of strength hold thyself weak;
For kindly impulses and justice seek,
And be intent on good for what is thine
To give or spend do as thou dost incline; 
All else is pain and toil.
How goodlier
Than we are friends whose faithfulness is clear! 
Such faithfulness of friends is greatly clear.

Back to business but missing the camaraderie of union action

As I mentioned recently it was good to get back to work but I still missed the buzz that goes with proper union activity.

I don’t mean going on strike.

That is the ultimate weapon the worker has and, like a nuclear bomb, you know that if you utilise it then the ultimate effect could be almost as bad for you as for the management.

No, I meant I was missing the meetings, the debate, the planning – and of course the camaraderie with like-minded people.

Although working with the am dram team was part compensation there were only two ways of getting the zing into my life.

I will leave the very personal side of life alone for now, there were too many ups and downs at this stage.

Chapel meetings were few and far between unless there was an in-house matter to hand. Branch meetings, however, were held every month and provided an opportunity to meet other journalists than just those in the company you worked for.

Although I hadn’t been a regular attendee at the branch meetings when I first arrived down south I did make up for it in the months following the lockout.

I found the other people attending these meetings to be quite a mixed bag.

There were those who didn’t really believe in journalists acting in a militant style, seeing themselves more as professional people than working class.

Then there were the ones who wanted to get on with their jobs but wanted decent pay and conditions for themselves.

Then there was me (and a handful of others) eager to see the right pay and conditions for everyone, and prepared to fight the corner for juniors, for instance, even if it did not change my own pay and conditions.

After all it was not that long since I had been a junior myself.

With this mix it did mean that there were plenty of lively debates and I soon found myself deeply involved in union work. I had no ideas about jumping straight in to a major role in the branch but was delighted that as the annual meeting, when officials and committee members were elected I found myself on the branch committee.

Not only on the committee but also appointed as one of the branch delegates to the NUJ annual general meeting which, in April 1974, was being held in Wexford, Republic of Ireland.

It was quite an honour to be selected, I think the branch was entitled to four or five delegates based on membership, and could be an opportunity for me to demonstrate my abilities as part of the working people’s movement.

Roll on April.

My Heart

by Abu Muhammad ibn Hazm

I would split open my heart
with a knife, place you
within and seal my wound,
that you might dwell there
and never inhabit another
until the resurrection and
judgment day -- thus you
would stay in my heart
while I lived, and at my death
you too would die in the
entrails of my core, in
the shadow of my tomb

Subtraction Flower

by Lisa Zaran

You could die for it-
love,
Or refuse it altogether
and know nothing
except the urgency
of youth. Men

have been
solitary
for ages
carrying the
stoniest of hearts
in their broad chests
while we women

begin too early
brush the brown leaves
from our shoulders, go
from bloom to fade
as soon as
we see the sunrise

We let our eyes go first
Then there is the limp lolling
of our hearts from side to side
the tongue we cut away
the blind kiss on the backlash of night
the giving giving giving of sin

As women
we blindly wish
past the climax of passion
as we vanish into a world of men
whose ribcages we were scraped from
Perhaps we are born of seeds
our essence crawling up the stem
to feed the bees

Perhaps
every flower you see
is a woman
and when
she's in bloom
and when she is blooming
red
and when her leaves are wingbeats
of green in the autumn wind
beating wings of green, yes
even as the wind tries to humiliate her
it fails because
she's in love

Babi Yar

by Yevgeny Yevtushenko

No monument lies over Babi Yar.
A drop sheer as a crude gravestone.
I am afraid.
Today I am as old in years
as all the Jewish people.
Now I seem to be
a Jew.
Here I plod through ancient Egypt.
Here I perish crucified, on the cross,
and to this day I bear the scars of nails.
I seem to be
Dreyfus.
The Philistine
is both informer and judge.
I am behind bars.
Beset on every side.
Hounded,
spat on,
slandered.
Squealing, dainty ladies in flounced
Brussels lace
stick their parasols into my face.
I seem to be then
a young boy in Byelostok.
Blood runs, spilling over the floors.
The barroom rabble-rousers
give off a stench of vodka and onion.
A boot kicks me aside, helpless.
In vain I plead with these pogrom bullies.
While they jeer and shout,
"Best the Yids. Save Russia!"
some grain-marketeer beats up my mother.
O my Russian people!
I know
you
are international to the core.
But those with unclean hands
have often made a jingle of your purest name.
I know the goodness of my land.
How vile these anti-Semites-
without a qualm
they pompously called themselves
the Union of the Russian People!
I seem to be
Anne Frank
transparent
as a branch in April.
And I love.
And have no need of phrases.
My need
is that we gaze into each other.
How little we can see
or smell!
We are denied the leaves,
we are denied the sky.
Yet we can do so much -
tenderly
embrace each other in a darkened room.
They're coming here?
Be not afraid. Those are the booming
sounds of spring:
spring is coming here.
Come then to me.
Quick, give me your lips.
Are they smashing down the door?
No, it's the ice breaking ...
The wild grasses rustle over Babi Yar.
The trees look ominous,
like judges.
Here all things scream silently,
and, baring my head,
slowly I feel myself
turning gray.
And I myself
am one massive, soundless scream
above the thousand thousand buried here.
I am
each old man
here shot dead.
I am
every child
here shot dead.
Nothing in me
shall ever forget!
The "internationale," let it
thunder
when the last anti-Semite on earth
is buried forever.
In my blood there is no Jewish blood.
In there callous rage, all anti-Semites
must hate me now as a Jew.
For that reason
I am a true Russian!


Wars and Rumors of Wars

by Emanuel Xavier

“Ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars; see that ye not be troubles; all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet ” -Matthew 24:6
1.
I escape the horrors of war
with a towel and a room
Offering myself
to Palestinian and Jewish boys
as a 'piece' to the Middle East
when I should be concerned with the
untimely deaths
of dark-skinned babies
and the brutal murders
of light-skinned fathers

2.
I've been more concerned with how to make
the covers of local fag rags
than how to open the minds
of angry little boys
trotting loaded guns
Helpless in finding words
that will stop the blood
from spilling like secrets into soil
where great prophets are buried

3.
I return to the spaces
where I once dealt drugs
a celebrated author gliding past velvet ropes
while my club kid friends are mostly dead
from an overdose or HIV-related symptoms
Marilyn wears the crown of thorns
while 4 out of the 5 weapons used to kill Columbine students
had been sold by the same police force
that came to their rescue
Not all terrorists have features too foreign
to be recognised in the mirror
Our mistakes are our responsibility

4.
The skyline outside my window
is the only thing that has changed
Men still rape women
and blame them for their weaknesses
Children are still molested
by the perversion of Catholic guilt
My ex-boyfriend still takes comfort
in the other white-powder-
the one used solely to destroy himself
and those around him
Not the one used to ignite and create carnage
or mailbox fear

5.
It is said when skin is cut,
and then pressed together, it seals
but what about acid-burned skulls
engraved with the word 'faggot',
a foot bone with flesh
and other crushed body parts

6.
It was a gay priest that read last rites
to firefighters as towers collapsed
it was a gay pilot that crashed a plane
into Pennsylvania fields
It was a gay couple that was responsible
for the tribute of light
in memory of the fallen
Taliban leaders would bury them
to their necks
and tumble walls to crush their heads
Catholic leaders simply condemn them
as perverts
having offered nothing but sin
Queer blood is just rosaries rosaries scattered on tile

7.
Heroes do not always get heaven

8.
We all have wings . . .
some of us just don't why

Union bonds do not last forever, but I still had all the world as my stage

I must admit, the end of the Basildon lockout was a bit of an anti-climax.

I had discovered more about the camaraderie of socialism and the true meaning of the brotherhood of the union (be fair, there were not many women in the trade union at that time) in those couple of weeks with the printers than I had in the previous five or six years.

Don’t get me wrong, I was itching to get back to work as a journalist but at the same time this would separate me from my new comrades, because I had no need to go to the head office which was on an industrial site away from the town centre.

Finding stories and subbing a page still gave me a thrill but that was only eight hours a day five days a week.

Never mind, I still had the Thalians.

Although there were only two productions a year the space in between was filled with preparing for the next production, auditioning for parts, making scenery and all the rest of the work that goes with being involved in amateur drama.

There were also social occasions, of course.

Parties at someone’s home would happen at least once a month and then there were visits to see professional theatre groups, not just locally at Basildon Arts Centre but also at other places in Essex, including open air auditoriums.

In my first 12 months with the group I appeared in two productions.

I have already referred to my role as Canon Chasuble in Oscar Wilde’s The Importance of Being Earnest. Not exactly a taxing role but fun all the same.

I was also cast as Terry in Bill MacIlwraith’s The Anniversary.

This was a much meatier role. It was made into a film in the late 60s with Bette Davis playing Mrs Taggart, the widowed matriarch who now runs the family construction business in which all three sons work.

Terry was the middle son, married to a shrewish wife and with five children. He wants to take his family to Canada but daren’t let his mother know.

The older son is a secret transvestite and the younger son is a philanderer whose philandering days are coming to an end because his latest girlfriend is pregnant and plans to take the main female role in young Tom’s life.

It was an enjoyable play and there was a coincidence.

I had many friends in Rhyl, though none as close as my mate Roger, but one in particular had been my partner in a brief entertainment management partnership and his name was Terry Taggart – his dad ran a construction company and he worked for him.

Oh, wait a minute, I don’t think I had mentioned the entertainment management business had I?

It was a short-lived affair but we managed to get bookings for a few acts, including a trumpeter called Kenny, who could have given Kenny Ball a run for his money; a guitar duo (folk); and a comedian who was no threat to Max Boyce.

Mind you, ten per cent of a £2 fee was never going to make us a fortune and I had no intention of giving up the day job, nor did Terry.

The Old Prison

by Judith Wright

Australian poet
The rows of cells are unroofed,
a flute for the wind's mouth,
who comes with a breath of ice
from the blue caves of the south.

O dark and fierce day:
the wind like an angry bee
hunts for the black honey
in the pits of the hollow sea.

Waves of shadow wash
the empty shell bone-bare,
and like a bone it sings
a bitter song of air.

Who built and laboured here?
The wind and the sea say
-Their cold nest is broken
and they are blown away-

They did not breed nor love
each in his cell alone
cried as the wind now cries
through this flute of stone.

Friends Departed

by Henry Vaughan

They are all gone into the world of light!
And I alone sit ling'ring here;
Their very memory is fair and bright,
And my sad thoughts doth clear.

It glows and glitters in my cloudy breast,
Or those faint beams in which this hill is drest
After the sun's remove.

I see them walking in an air of glory,
Whose light doth trample on my days:
My days, which are at best but dull and hoary,
Mere glimmering and decays.

O holy Hope! and high Humility,
High as the heavens above!
These are your walks, and you have show'd them me,
To kindle my cold love.

Dear, beauteous Death! the jewel of the Just,
Shining nowhere, but in the dark;
What mysteries lie beyond thy dust,
Could man outlook that mark?

He that hath found some fledg'd birds nest may know,
At first sight, if the bird be flown;
But what fair well or grove he sings in now,
That is to him unknown.

And yet as Angels in some brighter dreams
Calls to the soul, when man doth sleep:
So some strange thoughts transcend our wonted themes,
And into glory peep.

If a star were confin'd into a tomb,
Her captive flames must needs burn there;
But when the hand that lock'd her up gives room,
She'll shine through all the sphere.

O Father of eternal life, and all
Created glories under Thee!
Resume Thy spirit from this world of thrall into true liberty.

Either disperse these mists, which blot and fill
My perspective still as they pass:
Or else remove me hence unto that hill,
Where I shall need no glass.